☆keireaの遊び場と夢の土地!

Breathe. Think. Reflect.

It’s been quite awhile since i last blogged. Hmm busy? Quite. And i don’t really have much things to blog about too.

Life’s hectic, or rather exciting, meaningful, living life to the fullest. Sometimes i didn’t even know why was i doing certain things. Did i do it because of free will, or was it simply for the sake of doing it. Sometimes, i cant feel myself. Ahh however, i kept asking myself why did i choose to be in the state of where i am now. I asked myself that question, and i thought of the reason. I feel much better every time i remind myself those beliefs which i hold on to most dearly. I have some goals in mind and i really hope to achieve them at the end of this one year of commitment. That’s the invisible force that keeps me going.

On top of that, i feel better whenever i know that there are friends, going through all these with me. We all share the same thoughts. Many at times we were reluctant to abide by the instructions. But because of one another, because we were all doing it together, we pushed ourselves forward. that’s really something i appreciate a lot. ^.^

Anyway to my utmost horror and surprise, actually not really, i found that most of my guy-friends around me are facing a same exact problem. B-G-R problem. Hey people, please don’t feel depressed or what-so-ever over this issue, because afterall, many of the brothers are facing the same problem with you! you are not alone! it’s pretty comforting to hear that people are sharing the same problem as you right! come on, things will turn out good eventually, believe that! Man, i sound as though i’ve similar woes. -.- haha. And one thing i can conclude out of this is that, CHS guys are starting to realise the existence of the opposite sex only when they are in JC. And thanks to the four marvelous years in an all boys school environment, we have little skills and experience when it comes to B-G-R issues. It’s pretty crappy. One may see a girl, know her for a few weeks and straight away thinks that she is definitely THE ONE. Omg please. Perhaps that’s one of the bad points of studying in a boys’ school. Anyway i sincerely hope that my brothers out there, please differentiate infatuations and true love. But anyway, since we are brothers, i’ve no choice but to give you all my blessings. Add oil ahh! Any new updates/progress please tell me okay! And please don’t 重色轻友 ah!

And i had my GP test today. I was the King of spotting essay questions for prelims and tests last year man! but today, i didnt manage to spot the GP essay question. We were given 10questions and 5 came out today. Never in my wildest dream. It was 50% chance of spotting it right but i still didnt manage to grab it! Omg, tough luck. I’ve no choice but attempted a question which seemed less-difficult. You know what, only 2 person in the class did that question. I’m so dead.=(

Other than GP, i think i need to catch up with most of the subjects. Like maths, which i still find some part of it disgustingly disgusting. But at least what we’re doing now is way better than plotting silly graphs. Oh, TIME magazines and Newsweek are piling up. FYI, for TIME mag, i’m still at Obama’s China Challenge and i’ve not touched a single copy of Newsweek yet. Ahhh man!

Long weekend’s coming. And the Chia’s family has voted and all 4 of us are going for a short holiday, out at sea in Malaysia. I’ve no idea which part of M’sia, all i know is that we are joining Aunt’s family and we will be fishing and eating seafood and blah blah blah. Sounds cool, but that also means that i’ll been spending my weekend unproductively. Hmm somehow, i feel that spending time with family is necessary, especially nowadays when i always arrived home late and i always find myself eating dinner in front of my computer screen instead.

Something random. My brother, the biological one i mean, is sick of his white elephant (the remote controlled helicopter) and he threw it aside. I shall play with it when he’s not around. Awesome lahh.

Okay i’m off. Geography test tomorrow. I need luck.

Good night, take care.

I was chatting with a friend just now. And he taught me what is meant by appreciating the simplest pleasure in life.

Friend of mine said..

*i on MRT
*so i felt the phone vibrate
*i saw her number
*i damn bloody happy i tell u
*cuz all the guys left alr
*im was alone in the train
*they alighted at hougang
*i forgot what i want to say
*or wat i can say
*i jus replied ok ok like damn happily and abit dumbly.

Silly friend of mine, you have my blessings. Good luck in pursuing your true love.

“When will life finally settle down? Time and time again violent winds chop the waters and my ship threatens to capsize… It’s tiring and I’m being driven to the edge. I wanted to live on edge, but not like this. Shame and embarrassment you invade my life too much. And no they don’t understand. But people have different priorities in life and mine is unique.” -E.

Perhaps i shouldn’t think too much.
Argh, this is indeed my greatest flaw as a person.
I hope i’ve the ability to mind-read.

Sometimes, a simple word of concern from you can easily make my day. I appreciate them, really.

Alright i’m drifting away from my usual style of blogging. Ah whatever, good night.

I think i really look tired nowadays. Quite a few people have been telling me to rest more.

I guess the reason why i’m tired is because.. i’m starting to do my homework and revise my subjects everyday. HAHA! i mean, in the past i didn’t really give a damn about tutorial homework. i would only do them and submit for the sake of submitting homework when the deadlines were nearing. that’s the reason why i failed most of the tests recently. =(

Sometimes, i think i mustn’t lose my directions. I’ve a goal in mind. I need to keep holding on to it. It’s somewhat a motivation for me.

School work has been piling up. And i’m beginning to feel the heavy commitments i have, as a future councillor in school. Time constraining. So time management is key. Actually, we don’t even have any time for us to manage. So time management is quite bullshit.

Oh, i’m beginning to love geography more because now we’re doing physical geog. It’s quite cool. I like the current geog lessons, that’s why i won’t complain and i’ll do the tutorials for sure.

GP is forever my love. Econs is fine. Maths can be disgusting and gross at times, but i promise i’ll love it very soon. I’ve nothing to say about Hisory, if he continues to cancel tutorial class and chase us out.

Opps, time for work!

life isn’t that sucky afterall..

Life’s a routine.

M, i simply cannot describe how i feel for you, how thankful i am. You make me feel so lucky. You are my motivation to become stronger, a better person. I feel excited everytime i receive your text reply, and knowing that you are happy makes me feel so.. wonderful. You might not like me the way i want you to, but i’ll never stop liking you. You are totally amazing. Good morning M, have a nice day! =) !!

A short message from E to M. I read it, i felt his sincerity. It’s rather mushy and disgusting and gross. But, it’s quite sweet. really. I admire your courage, dear friend; as much as i admire huiyang’s courage. But same thing, i wont learn from you guys, i’ll do it my way. Awesomely.

Good night.

Napfa day today. Woke up pretty early, 6.30am. Thanks to my mum who woke me up, if not i’ll definitely oversleep and miss the whole thing. Why? Because my mindset for Napfa is a bit wrong. I mean, i don’t believe physical fitness can be measured, let alone being measured with and defined by 5 stations and 1 mini-marathon run. Perhaps that’s one of the flaws of Singapore’s education system.

Oh, Napfa. I missed Gold by 2cm of Standing Board Jump. Sorry Huiyang, i’ve let you down. Hahaha.

The title of my blog post is ‘Nostalgia’. So i won’t be talking about Napfa for the entire post right? Hmm after Napfa, i took a train home just like any other day. While i was on the escalator right, i saw this little boy in Number4 NCC uniform. Today is the Sec1 NCC Affirmation Ceremony! Man, this little boy is awesome. He brings me lots of memories about my NCC life for the past 3.5 years in Catholic High.  I saw his uniform, totally clean without any rank and badges. I still remember the day when i went for NCC Affirmation Ceremony. My uniform was clean, without a single badge and my rank at that time was Recruit which means, no rank at all. Hmm for my year, it was at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. I’m sure i looked kuku in the uniform at that time. But that’s not the point. The chekwei in NCC at that time was innocent and nonchalant, a total optimistic guy; or rather happy-go-lucky. As the years went by,  i began to realise that things weren’t going the way i expected. Trainings were tough. Seniors were all trying hard to make good use of the one and only training day to torture us. I still remember, whenever it was thursday, mervyn and i will become totally emo. Reason: Friday is our training day. On our way home on thursday afternoons, we will discuss if we should ‘pon’ tomorrow’s training. Man, i miss those days.

Here came Friday. The time for us to fall in, report and be ready was 2.15pm, a time that i would never forget. Why? No idea, it’s just drilled into me. Perhaps due to blind obedience or even absolute subordination. It was quite common for us to fall in and report late for attendance. ‘Whats the time now? You guys are late! Whole lot knock it down, every 30second late = 10 push ups..’ And the whole 29 of us will be in push up positions, and what awaited us was probably.. hell. Not to forget, we all have muscular arms now. Man, i miss those days.

For the first part of the training, we would basically train up on our foot drills. Quite challenging, since the whole 29 of us needed to coordinate our.. bangs? not the hairstyle please, lame. Oh, actually it’s pretty rare to see all 29 of us doing drills together, because some people will.. be sick and not feeling well, so they didn’t turn up for training. Hmm thinking back, it’s quite ridiculous for a guy to have stomach cramps for consecutive weeks. Maybe he was experiencing menstruation, right bentley? HAHAHA. Man, i miss those days.

Then we had physical training, for the last part of training. It was crazy. We did like, 30 push ups for warming up, plus sit ups and other shit. Annieway, i mean ANYWAY,  the best part of the whole training day was at the back. Recreational Actitivies were one of the motivations for us to turn up for training, honestly. Soccer time! Awesome. Life was miserable at that time, but every time i completed one day of training, i felt proud of myself for completing yet another major feat.

Haha, so much for my nostalgia part. I dont really expect people to read this, seriously. All these are for my eyes to see. Hmm sometimes it’s really good to do a.. reflection of the good old days. Afterall, all these are in our memories already, i’m just pouring things out for my eyes to see. Hai, life was good at that time.

I would say that, 3.5years of NCC has indeed turned me into a person with.. character. That’s hard to define, but pardon me for the incapability to express myself. ^.^

Alright man, that’s all for this.. not-short post. Some point form blogging, before i go.

  • Mahjong session tomorrow at Handsome’s house! Man i’m broke, that’s why i need Mahjong to win money! (i hope)
  • Mummy’s gonna get me a new school bag later. Hey what the hell, my current Converse is pathetically pathetic, and it’s not cool at all.
  • I’m pretty sure that i’ve pulled my muscle, at the right thigh. Man, it hurts even when i walk slowly. So now i can’t even walk properly. Thanks to Napfa’s shuttle run this morning.
  • Brother brought her beloved girlfriend back home just now. Gosh, they occupied the whole room and guess what, i had my nap in the living room, argh.
  • Ai Otsuka’s 20th single release! Awesome! Can’t wait anymore, i think i will just buy online and get it delivered to my house. The power of Ai!
  • Huiyang did something.. worth-mentioning on my million-viewership blog. I admire his courage, i won’t learn from him. HAHA!
  • Lastly, Japan trip doesnt seem to be as.. fun as i think. But i don’t care, as long as i’m going with my friends and its J A P A N! Oh my goodness. Can’t wait, too excited!

Alright, that’s all.

Take care.

ELEVEN

You walk really slow when you’re with them.

TEN

You feel shy whenever they’re around.

NINE

You smile when you hear their voice..

EIGHT

When you look at them, you can’t see the other people around you, you just see him/her.

SIX

They’re all you think about.

FIVE

You realize you’re always smiling when you’re looking at them.

FOUR

You would do anything for them, just to see them.

THREE

While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO

You were so busy thinking about that person, you didn’t notice number seven was missing

ONE

You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

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EXTRA SIGNS BY FANS (VERY GOOOOD ONES):
- You keep checking his/her facebook profile [Admin]
- You take unexpected measures just to see/be with that person [Admin]
- When you see him/her with another person you seem to then dislike that person [Pagan Holly Morris]
- When all you do is wait for him/her to come online and when he/she does you get nervous!! [Hannah Quittenton]
- A smile comes on ur face when you see her/him on facebook chat [Maiwand Khan]
- When you find out they like someone else you feel like your heart is ripping [Courtney Holder]
- Your heart skips a beat whenever they’re online, even though you know you’re not going to talk to them. You try to persuade yourself that you don’t like them. [Jack Richardson]
- You purposely bring up his/her name in a converstation just to talk about them. [Taylor Selanders]
- When They Come Online You Jus Stare At There Screen Name Thinking Should I Talk? Or Not? [Morsally Spongeybob ]
- Whenever that person is in the same room you cant help but ignore everything else in the room and concentrate on them! [Chris Longstaff]
- You daydream about things that could happen if you were together even though you know it is very unlikely to actually happen. If you catch them looking at you, smiling at you or when they talk to it makes you smile and you automatically think “maybe he likes me back…” and your heart skips a beat ♥ [Ella Pile]
- You re-read their texts just so you get butterflies all over again. [Taylor Cornes]

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o h m y g o o d n e s s.
P/S: happy month of april ! ! !

I think i spent my weekend rather, meaningfully (i think)

Yesterday was saturday. it’s like what the hell, we had geography lecture in the morning. lucky i had a morning call from zhang bigbig, if not i doubt i’d be able to wake up. Hey hello, i had clique chat with OG mates till 2am at Mac the night before! By the way, BaiYunGang was awesome. My money spent was worthwhile! Too bad to those who missed this annual production, especially those who went for basketball training! HAHAHAH! Hmm next up was Fun-O-Rama at ACJC. It’s really cool, just that the music being blasted wasnt very loud. But but but, the whole thing was really cool. Love the Tropical Spritzer from.. i forgot the class. i had two cups of it. Met a lot of people, talked a lot, laughed a lot. It was really a good platform for friends to meet up and chat chat chat. I had a great time, thanks AC people <3

Today was.. sleep day. i dont know why man. i really suspect someone hit me on my head and i had a brain concussion or something. I slept a lot today man! I woke up at around 11am, ate my lunch, did my laundry (since my mum isnt in Singapore and my second pair of uniform is with my fiancee huiyang, so i need wash my own uniform if not i’ve got nothing to wear tmr!), then i watched abit of tv and i went back to sleep again! What happened next is that, i woke up around 5plus. and i was slacked a lot from then on, until now. Oh cool, nice weekend i had. But no worry, i’m bright awake now and i’m gonna burn some oil tonight and get all my homework done. best is that i can do some revision as well. uknow what, term2 week2 is full of tests! gosh!

Anyway i met up with a few of my secondary close friends yesterday. They are all experiencing Love sick! Like what the hell! And this particular friend of mine, whom i think it isnt very nice for me to announce his name over this million-viewers blog, is quite emo-ish yesterday. i’ve no idea, but what it seems like is that, the girl he likes, likes another guy. I dont know why, but i can totally feel the pain he’s feeling now. Dont worry brother, there are much more nicer/prettier/hotter/whatever girls out there. Note: i said ‘much more’, not ‘many more’. because it’s uncountable! xoxo<3

Hmm term2 week1 just flew past like this, in a blink of an eye. Nothing much happened, i was just taken aback by some happenings. i’m really fine now. ^.^

Alright term2 week2 is where all the class tests, lecture tests and blah blah shits all take place. and council election results will be announced on thursday as well. nervous? very. scared? somewhat. prepared? yes totally.

Regarding voting, all i wanna say is that, all the best nominees. No matter what, we’re still a bunch of people who endured the camp together.

Remember to say ‘hi’ to me in school, even if i didnt make it through the elections yea. ^.^

Parents are coming back tomorrow morning, i guess i’ll be in school already. Hope they have a safe journey back. And oh, brother isnt back yet from Kbox-ing with his beloved, i’m still home alone now. Abit lonely now, i guress i’ll indulge myself in my homework.

Goodnight everybody! Anyway ignore my blogpost title, it’s just some random words. really!

Stop thinking of those things anymore, focus man!

I’ll pull through this, no matter what. Have faith in me, trust me.

I won’t give up, because i know that many people are behind me, supporting me. I’ve spoken to my mum regarding those issues and i didnt regret sharing all my woes with her. She didnt say anything much, just that she told me to try my best and fight for what i really want. That’s all she said. I’ve no idea, its just some simple, plain, cliche things but those words meant a lot to me. Keep holding on.

I won’t give up. I’ve straightened my thoughts. My mind is clear. I’ll push myself to achieve what i truly deserve.

So many things running in my mind, but i’m glad i’ve managed to think logically, maturely and sensibly.

perhaps i’ve really learnt a lot during the council camp. thank you people.