☆keireaの遊び場と夢の土地！

Just feel like updating my beautiful blog. Oh by the way, i really do think that my blog is a nice piece of art, i’m really proud of it. I mean, the interface is really cool. I’m glad that i managed to came across this skin. Bleah!

Blog in point form.

• Maths is killing me, just like it did last year. Exact same period last year. Tons of remedials for maths. Oh last year was worse, i had remedials for Physics and Chemistry. Absolutely disgusting.
• Just compiled my H2 geography notes. Like what my MSN personal message says, it’s as thick as the igneous rock. And i’m referring to Physical Geography notes. Not forgetting, Human Geography will be tested in Mid-Year as well. Okay screwed up.
• Just received a letter from the Ministry, about NS. Felt kind of lost when i was tearing the envelope. Ahh less than two years, and i’ll be bald. Oh no!
• FFFC meet-up this Sunday for BBQ! Wah excited lehh!
• Ulcers attack again. Notice: Ulcers, with the ‘s’ at the back. This is real crap, its damn painful, to the extend that i can’t really speak properly. Eat? Not much appetite either. It’s affecting me pretty much. I get frustrated more easily these few days. Ahh sorry people!
• Hooked onto GLEE. Oh my goodness, it’s damn nice music. And i came to know this Sam Tsui guy. He sings real well. I’ve shared a couple of videos on my facebook wall. Take a look! It’s awesome!
• Mid-year is coming. Now all i need is the motivation to study hard. And i think i’ve found it. Oh, judging from the amount of work i need to study, i think i need to study smart instead. I’m not sure if my way of studying works, but i think i should give it a try. STUDY SMART.
• Miss secondary school life to the max. =/
• Oh yeah, these few days i have weird cravings for food. Like KOI milktea, vanilla ice-cream, blah blah. And right now, i wanna eat red-bean paste.
• Tomorrow is World Cup already! Omg, excited much! South Africa vs Mexico tomorrow at 10pm! I dont know anybody from both sides, but i’m sure gonna watch it on Channel5, because it’s one of the few that Channel5 broadcast. Too bad, i dont have Cable Tv! Good thing too, i can focus more on Mid-Year preparations. Blessing in disguise ^.^
• I kind of miss Japan’s weather. Singapore is damn hot, even hotter than me please!

Okay i’m done. I must say this again. My ulcers are causing much pain to me. Nobody can understand this pain, unless you are having ulcer too. Oh yeah, something interesting. My whole family has ulcer in their mouth. Haha, that’s why we are one family. So bonded right! Pain pain pain!

I’m off. Good night people.

I was reading through my old blogposts. And these photos are what i saw.

I seriously miss my clean and neat study table. Now, the sight of my messy table makes me feel like puking, and i don’t feel like studying at all.

Right now, i’m gonna clean up the mess and get down to real business! 20 more days, my dear chekwei!

PS/ The ‘Customize’ button at the side bar is really cool, check it out!

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Hopefully!

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
The person i last texted is chevon lim -.-

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Absolutely. The moment i woke up, i tweeted using my handphone. “Slept for exactly 12 hours. Life cant get any better. ”

4. When were you last on the phone? With whom?
Last night, with my dad.

5. Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
Haha no?

6. Listening to music?
Yeah, Ayumi-ing.

7. What are you excited for?
Nothing much, i’m feeling calm.

8. What were you doing yesterday?
IpMan2 plus carrot cake and chicken rich in the morning. PW meeting in the afternoon, dinner with family at night. Quite happy day.

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
*Blush*

10. What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
This brownie cookie that i bought from Daiso in Japan. Quite sweet, abit bitter. Nice.

11. Have a best friend?
Yes! I’m thankful to have confidantes. not many of them, but i cherish them all.

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
No?

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
It’s alright, as long as their love for one another is strong and truthful.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
No one in particular.

15. What time is it right this second?
7:34pm. Dinner time!

16. What do you want right now?
Gonna have dinner right after this quiz. 80 Questions, oh my goodness -.-

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
I forgot, must be the Japan Trippers!

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
I’m chekwei.

19. When was the last time you cried?
Can’t remember.

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Can’t get any better, really.

22. How fast does your mind change?
Not really, but i can be really indecisive at times.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
Haha i miss all my friends! (most politically correct answer ever)

24. Can you honestly say you’re okay right now?
I’m fine.

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
In the midst of desperation, people can’t evaluate their options sensibly.

26. Tell me what’s on your mind?
I hope my hair can grow 10x faster.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Hmm i hope i can sort certain things out.

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?
Yeah, i wore my mum’s sweater through out Olevel exam period. Quite comfy, but strong smell of perfume.

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Hmm, number1? I dont rank my friends. I do have a couple of BFFs, but no number1 top friend.

30. When is your next road trip?
Huh!

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yeah quite a few. Some went through tough times with me, i cherish them a lot. They are just like my confidantes.

32. How’s your heart?
Big.

33. Have you ever felt like you weren’t important?
Honestly, sometimes when my incapabilities surfaced.

34. Do you think somebody’s in love with you?
Nice question.

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
After this quiz? i think i’ll get down to business and start mugging.

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
Nice question again.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Nope.

38. Who do you not get along with?
No one i think.

39. What does your third text on your phone say?
“Oh Haha kk i see that you are very mature and sensible.” (chevon lim)

40. What are you wearing right now?
Catholic High PE-tee. super comfy.

41. You’re locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
Absolute chance to kiss her again. I mean, seriously. -.-

42. When’s the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Hmm i never like cheese.

43. What’s your fave boy and girl name right now?
Jack and Jill. HAHAHA!

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
Still as tired. I don’t know why, the longer i sleep, the more tired i become. Ahh whats wrong with me!

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Yeah, i’m pretty bored!

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
I love it, love the sound, love the feeling.

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
I slept at 12midnight, exactly.

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
No idea, CCW perhaps?

49. Who’s the first B in your contacts?
Benjamin.

50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
Really hard? I think it’s the last night in hotel, playing Truth or Truth with Gary. Epic moment lahh!

50Questions! Omg quite long man!

Anyway people, i’m back from Japan. Great experience, gained new insights, love it. I had fun, i hope those who went for other trips had fun too. Right? For those who went for LTC, HAHA!

Week 1 of june holiday has passed. Okay i’m quite dead, i haven’t been revising a single stuff. I have 3 more weeks. Exactly 21 days.

Alright everybody, jiayou!

4.05am now in Japan!

Not sleeping, definitely not gonna waste the last night sleeping right? The whole lot of us just came back from this 24 hour departmental store. (Actually we sneaked out of the hotel, bleah!)

Roughly spent all my Yen already. Spent quite a lot in HMV today. Happy!

A proper post next time, when i come back.

Cherishing the last night in Japan! <3

Alright people, i’m flying off to Kyushu, Japan in less than 12hours time. Departing time is 0100 according to instructions. Hmm, honestly i actually expected myself to be more excited. Like hello chek, this is the first time you’re flying! And what’s more it’s JAPAN lehh! i don’t know, i feel kind of calm. Perhaps many things have happened these few days, dampened my spirit. Oh well, i’ll try to be as HIGH as i can. Hahaha!

I’m still packing my luggage, yes at this point of time. Seems like there are quite a few things to pack. >.<

Anyway i guess when i return from Japan, things are gonna be hell for me. Lots of consultations, especially for Maths. So much so that my tutor has my handphone number and i ought to be on stand-by mode, preparing to go to school anytime for make-up lessons. Ahh maths T.T And there are 65 Geography revision questions which are suggested for us to do. Hey come on, if i really did all 65 questions, i’m no longer Chiachekwei already. 65, hello?! And there’s maths revision questions.

Kyushu. Hmm my impression of this place is just.. full of agriculture and fields and farms. Omg please. But anyway, i shall myself that ‘everything has a learning point’, and i’ll make the best out of this trip. Hehe. Hmm the whole group of us will be visiting Genkai Nuclear Plant, Nagasaki Bomb Museum, Noodle Factory, Minamata Disease Museum, Tanaka Shoten recycling plant, Wind farm, Japanese Broadcaster Station, Kimono fitting house and Hitsuyukan High School. Sounds cool?

Oh yea, had my first exam in NYJC yesterday. General Paper. I’ve nothing much to say about yesterday’s paper. I need miracle. HAHA!

I’m not bringing any cameras there, so i guess my eyes will be wide open and see every single thing in sight and embed them in my mind. ^.^

Back to packing.

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Done packing! Going dinner with my family soon. I’ll be back on 3 June afternoon! Alright people, miss you all!

Destination: Kyushu, Japan!

Bon Voyage for me!

Breathe. Think. Reflect.

“sometimes, it’s no longer about self-confidence. neither it’s about how much faith you have in yourself. it is about self-awareness and practicality. when you know you aren’t up to mark, it’s best that you choose another path that suits you most.”

A lot of things have been happening around me. I hate it to admit, but i feel that the above statements are sensible. In the past, i always felt that constantly believing in ourselves is the most important thing. i felt that no matter how ignorant or incapable one can be, as long as his faith for himself is sky high, he will achieve what he wants. Many things have happened, and finally i realise the cruelty of reality. i hate it, i really hate it.

Sometimes, you may have confidence in yourself. You know you can do it. But ask yourself again, can you really do it? Even if your mental fortitude is strong,  but deep inside you, you are somewhat aware that you are actually not be capable to fulfill the task. You actually have abit of insecure within yourself that you may fail, however you are willing to try to fulfill the task. A chance to try? That’s a privilege which is not granted easily. It’s either you can do it, or you cannot. There’s no such thing as ‘try’. In this case, from what i’ve concluded, it is best to put away all the burning self-confidence and be more self-awared of yourself. Be practical. Be realistic. This is what i mean by practicality. This is life, i’m sad to say. This world is practical and realistic. There’s little opportunities for you to make mistakes. Whenever you feel that bit of uncertainty within you, it’s best to face it bravely and give up. This is what i mean by, self-awareness > self-confidence.

Having said that (sounds familiar, oh well..), i totally agree that life is too short for us to make mistakes and learn from them. Sometimes, we may not even be given the chance to try things out and eventually make mistakes. (Chances are always reserved for the best of the bests.) The most we can do is to learn from the mistakes that other people made. Sorry if i’ve phrased it so bluntly, but this is what i feel. I hate it, i really hate it.

Self awareness > Self confidence. This applies to every field in our lives. When you know that you aren’t suitable, just simply drop that idea and move on with life. Now, there’s no room for people to hold on dearly to their beliefs and persevere through. These people will only be labeled as people living in self-denial. Sometimes, giving up is the best and only option. I hate it, i really hate it.

Sadly, but this is life. I can only blame myself, to realise this fact only at this stage of my life. Can’t believe that people address us as ‘young adults’ when i can’t even handle such.. cruelty of reality. I admit, i’m ignorant.

There’s nothing much i can do. I can only work hard, and try to improve myself and be a stronger person. If i failed to do so, i’ll take it as a learning point and continue to move on with life. I hate it, i really hate it. However, i’m somewhat convinced to accept these facts of life through the things i’ve been through. Ahh shucks.

Actually i should feel blessed, because i got to experience more things. i believe that through experiencing, i will be able to learn and grow. Perhaps all these are a blessing in disguised. But are they too much for me to handle? I think so.

Things have just began. I wont use the word ‘learn’ or ‘grow’, that will be an overstatement. I’d say, i’ve certainly ‘experienced’ a lot. Thank you. I’m sure there will be more coming up. I’m not sure if i can withstand all these, but i will face them with an open mind.

Anyway, pardon me for the.. lack of ability to express myself freely due to my bad English language. Ahh, speaking of that, GP mid-year exam in 2 days! Kill me please! And and and, 2 make-up tests await me tomorrow!

On a lighter note, i’m going to Japan on Friday night! Oh my god please! Actually i’m not as excited as i thought i would be. Hmm i don’t know why. But, well.. haha. I’m still looking forward to it!

PS/ Sorry for this emotional blogpost. anyway i doubt anybody will read, seriously. It’s for my eyes to see. Anyway i feel much better after ranting all over on my blog. Well, it’s my blog afterall. It’s my only solace. I’m fine, i’m still the same old chek, just that i’ll be a stronger one! =D

PSS/ 580th post! 20 more to the big 600th post! go go go!

Happy mothers’ day!

Hmm our family didnt really deliberately celebrate mothers’ day. We just had dinner together, like any other weekends. Actually i thought of buying something special for my mother, but i think she has everything. I mean, she recently bought herself a new purse and handbag. So i think i’ll save up this time, and wait for her birthday to come, which is September 9. Nice date right! Hahaha. Anyway i’m sure my mum knows that love her, and i think that’s enough. ^.^

And i’m gonna jail break my ipod. TapTap is damn fun. Man, i know i’m damn slow to realise that this game is so fun. Hahaha!

And, EPL last match tonight! Chelsea will get the cup, please please please. It’s kinda boring to see the Reds getting it, again.

I’ll try to blog more often. And meanwhile, those lovesick dudes, hang it there! Hahaha, don’t get too emotional!

Alright goodnight, have a nice week ahead!

Hey mum, stay young! Love you always.

Superman says:
okay
i ask u one last thing
tell me ur most truthful answer

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*yeah please.

Superman says:
*she told my a female friend of mine to give up on her, should i give up?
*my that female friend showed me the msg ‘hey try to convince Superman to give up, persuade him pls’

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*i think.
*you should NOT give up.

Superman says:
*lol
*chekwei

Superman says:
*okay haha why u think so?

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*you have come this far.

Superman says:
*yup
*so im not gonna give up
*but i not gonna do anything either

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*just give each other a breather.
*give her a chance to know you again. [NOTE: words of wisdom]

Superman says:
*nice
*woah
*omg

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*man i dont know why, recently i think i keep talking sensible things.

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*right?! like my facebook thing. “Breathe. Think. Reflect.” awesome lahh.

Superman says:
*ohhhhh shittt
*yeah
*woah
*i still kenna wowed

Superman says:
*by that sentence
*’give her a chance to know you again’

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*man i love myself.

I’m addicted to posting msn conversations on my blog. It’s kindda funny, when i read them weeks later. Hahaha!

The Handsome X:
*i noe its hard to put down
*but step out of it
*REINTRODUCE URSELF TO THE WIDER GREENER PASTURE
*U WILL FEEL THE BREEZE ONCE AGAIN

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*wah. omg. is this the *** *** *** that i know?
*the guy im speaking to now, seems to be a brilliant cassanova.
*and he said words of wisdom. you left me thinking, once again.

The Handsome X:
*when u noe that this isnt going to work out
*u step out of it
*then try to find better pastures..

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*you mean, find new target?

The Handsome X:
*no lar
*just enjoy jc life
*U DUN WANT TO BE TIED DOWN TO ONE GIRL FOR 2 YEARS IN JC WHICH 90% WILL LEAVE U WHEN U GO NS  RIGHT

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*anyway. try telling these to huiyang.

♥CHIACHEKWEI. says:
*for your info, this above chat is going onto my blog. be honoured.
*aweasome lahh

Haha, actually the conversation was quite long. i had a nice chat with him. Seems like he has enlightened himself and he’s moving on. I’m quite happy for him, at least he knows what he wants now. But, i have a feeling that he will go into obsession once again. HAHAHA. Anyway, what he said makes real sense. But i think when the feelings come, it’s hard to escape from it. I wont take what he said as a pinch of salt, neither will i agree with him. I mean, i’ll find it best to face the thing bravely when it really comes. Sometimes it’s really hard to let go, especially when the feelings seem so true. This is really complicated and i’m glad i’m not stuck in this situation.

Right now, i shall be practical and realistic. I need to sleep, gonna wake up like 6am plus, according to Dad and set off early in the morning.

Hope you guys cherish your long weekend. Enjoy. Good night earth.

Happy month of May!

PS: blogpost edited. A sincere apology.