私の将来のことでしょうか？What will my future be?
My life as a junior college student begins in less than 4 hours.
Ahh.. Finally this moment is arriving.
Will it be a turning point of my life?
Good luck and godspeed to everyone!
Cherishing the last midnight..
Midnight post.
ため、私はあなたを 愛しあなたを見て。Looking at you, because i love you.
Im so not doing the future me myself, a favour. i’ve not been blogging for one whole week, which means the future me wont get to read what have been happening! alright, i try to recall what had happened over these few days now.
point form, its 2.30am now. i think i shall sleep soon, maybe after 2episodes of jdrama?
- went to scout for junior colleges.
- watched Bodyguards and Assassins 十月围城 for the 2nd time, with dad in the living room. love my television, its big enough. love the movie too, but why everybody die?
- played mahjong, in real life as well as virtual world. love it, though im still unclear of certain ways to win. but its really fun, especially when you’re holding on to someone’s tile and refused to throw it out. hmm cant wait for CNY, so that i can play with my relatives!
- bought contact lens. getting them on 26th or 28th. another milestone in my life. but sadly its not as cheap as i thought, so thanks mum and dad, really. i’ll work hard in JC with those pair of eyes and hope for scholarships, so u two can use my university’s school fee on somethings u both like. mum i know u like handbags and blouses and dresses. for dad is none other than fishing equipment and many many many crab/seafood feasts. i cant promise u that, but i’ll work for it. but even if mum and dad didnt buy me those things, its still my duty to study hard, isnt it?
- finished watching another jdrama ‘Proposal Daisakusen’. at first i thought this drama serial is extremely overrated. because i’ve friends bugging me to watch this. and also this drama serial is in the top10 jdrama list! so i so-called forced myself to watch episode 1. Surprisingly the plot is very unique. and they present love relationships in a very mature way. i like it. another brilliant drama starred by Yamashita Tomohisa. He is super handsome in Pro-Dai. Love his hair. it’s blonde. suits him a lot. He’s really handsome, wonder what he eats.
- Sunday night, wasnt really happy. Had abit of mis-communication with mum over the phone. Dinner with family at Sengkang, i kept silent through out. But after awhile i was fine. Come to think of it, i was really childish and insensible.
- rumours been spreading that school’s starting on 28th. whatever. we all need to go back to school after all!
- Had a stupid crush with this lady ‘G’. 99.9% due to Edison Lim’s influence. but its over, and the whole infatuation lasted less than 24hours, though it stretched for 2days. come on, come on! stick to the new year resolution!
- have not been jogging for the past 5days. guess i’ve absolutely no hope for track/x country in junior college. maybe i should join some air-con CCA, best is that i can do my homework/study during CCA days. *clap clap clap*
- cut hair. at first sight in the mirror, i thought it was really short. but after awhile i still think it’s quite long, especially the fringe and maybe the back. there goes my $7. cutting hair is a good decision after all, my hair used to be quite long and messy. now its much better!
- this is my list for JC school. things to buy. Contact Lens, Bag, Pencil Case, Keychains, Notebook, Track shoes, Watch, Wallet. as of now, i’ve only managed to get a watch. the rest all not yet ready! guess i’ll be bringing my old converse bag, with some pens/pencils and a used-exercise book and wearing my white school shoes on thursday. ahhhh!
Anyway one thing i remembered very clearly is that, i just visited the police station for the 2nd time in my life. Mum and dad wanted to make a police report. because apparently, Immigration & Checkpoints Authority ICA sent a letter to my house, but the receiver of this letter is like someone from Mars. we’ve never heard/seen of the name before. but the address was sent correctly, exactly to my house. so my parents were afraid that some jackass may have used our house address for something without our consent. so yea, we went to make a police report. hmm i wasn’t really pleased with the way in which the police sergeant settled this issue. she told us to contact ICA ourselves, as they cant do anything to help and all they can do, is to call up ICA too. and she said that it may be a mistake by ICA thats why they sent the letter to wrong adderess. and i remembered very very very clearly this particular sentence which she said. ‘Government do make mistakes’. *my eyes beamed* right, i think dad will call up ICA tmr and complain.
anyway the 1st time in my life which i went to the police station was that, i think my bro’s friend lost his handphone. so we all tagged along. i was really young, like primary4?
right right right, it’s hell 3.08am now. i shall do some facebooking, tweeting and perhaps some jdrama before i sleep!
goodnight earth! counting down to new school term!
不想睡。
Ahhhh… Cant sleep! ! ! (featuring Ai Otsuka)
Another Quiz! Slightly longer ones! I’m really glad that some of my friends did the previous one! I’ve read through them! I think quiz allows your friends and even yourself, to know more about you. And, this is KEIREA.COM’S NUMBER 550th POST! A GREAT MILESTONE! I’ll blog as much as i can, i’m sure if school opens, i will hardly be able to find time to update!
TEN HOW’S:
01 How did you get one of your scars?
Scars, only has 1 somewhere below the neck there. some minor op. i think i mention before leh, why you ask again!
02 How did you celebrate your last birthday?
with my dearest family and friends xoxo<3! two weeks ago!
03 How are you feeling at this moment?
very comfortable, because i just had my shower and i just switched on the air con to the lowest temp. nice nice =X
04 How did your night go last night?
last night, i think i went amk hub? and im sure i mentioned this before! Mr interviewer never do research!
05 How did you do in high school?
high school? not yet!
06 How did you get the shirt you’re wearing?
topless, coz i just had my shower *blushed!* gonna put on my tee real soon, the air con is freezing me!
07 How often do you see ur best friend?
quite often i guess. i mean, facebook pictures at least?
08 How much money did you spend last month?
last month december? hmm sad to say, about 300! most of them went to HMV or yesasia.com. bought lots of Ai’s and Ayumi’s things from japan. omfg!
09 How old do you want to be when you get married?
when i was younger, i used to hope that i can get married at 18. but its so unrealistic, its like i need to take A’s and ya. now i think 28 is the average for Singapore men to get married? i forgot, but im sure women is at the age of 25.
10 How old will you be at your next birthday?
18, adulthood!
NINE WHAT’S:
11 Your mothers name?
May.
12 What did you do last weekend?
last weekend.. 宅男-ing.
13 What is the most important part of your life?
dreams.
14 What would you rather be doing?
blogging?
15 What did you last cry over?
not worth mentioning about the sad moments!
16 What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
some happy things which i can look forward to?
17 What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
i think is.. personality. hmm if future girlfriend, i hope she can cook as well as wash the dish!
18 What are you worried about?
i’m abit worried that orientation week will be lame, boring, sian. i hope JC1′s orientation wont be as lame as sec1′s.
19 What did you have for breakfast?
breakfast, its been years since i ate breakfast. i mean, when i wake up, its already lunch time!
EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:
20 Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
no, but its pointless lar. we wont be together anyway.
21 Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes.
22 Have you ever been out of the country?
malaysia truly asia~
23 Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
cant think of any! but i think i tend to say wrong things at the wrong time, so i offended people quite easily =( Now, i’m really trying very hard to change!
24 Have you ever been back-stabbed by a friend?
sounds really horrible.
25 Have you ever had sex on the beach?
*blushed again*
26 Have you ever scolded someone who is younger than you?
nope? i think i scold older ones before. my bro =)
27 Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
never. i dun like reading. that explains my poor narrative skills. speaking of that, i didnt attempt narrative essays for the past 2 years! its either i wrote expository essays or i dont submit my english homework at all! Sorry Mrs Yap!
SEVEN WHO’S:
28 Who was the last person you saw?
bro. he’s sleeping now.
29 Who was the last person you texted?
L-Gene.
30 Who was the last person you hung out with?
hmm forgot leh.
31 Who was the last person to call you?
i really forgot, and my handpone display all the call-out contacts! sorry!
32 Who did you last hug?
who? no one. but i hugged my bolster while taking my afternoon nap.
33 Who is the last person who texted you?
L-Gene.
34 Who was the last person you said “i love you” to?
i think its linkai and clarence, omg. its a girl and a guy. hahahaha! because these two people’s birthday wish for me were super funny/ meaningful. so i sent ‘i love you’ to them. eeww, clarence is gay and linkai is a stalker! regret saying these 3 words. hahaha!
SIX WHERE’S:
35 Where does your best friend(s) live?
Little red dot.
36 Where did you last go?
toilet.
37 Where did you last hang out?
last few days, really nowhere.
38 Where do you go to school?
bishan street 22 aka CHS.
39 Where is your favorite place to be?
my house!
40 Where did you sleep last night?
my bed, if not your house meh?
FIVE DO’S/DOES:
41 Do you like someone right now?
i’ll try my best to forget her and stick closely to my new year resolution.
42 Do you think anyone likes you?
oh come on, this kind of thing.. embarrassing to say yes okay!
43 Do you ever wish you were someone else?
yes! sometimes im really jealous of other people. its like, why they can do this, why they can do that while i cannot. u know, these kind of feelings really sucks. but i think i’ve more or less, overcome them already.
44 Do you know the muffin man?
muffin man?!
45 Does the future scare you?
not really, at least my future arent super dark. its quite bright i guess? quite. haha!
FOUR WHY’S:
46 Why are your best friends with your best friend(s)?
can some rocket scientist explain the above sentence, thanks.
47 Why did you get a myspace?
dont have. i only have facebook, blog, msn, twitter.
48 Why did your parents give you the name you have?
谢志伟, sounds nice isnt it?
49 Why are you doing this survey?
because i think i’ve time to kill since i’m not tired yet. but its really long quiz!
THREE IF’S:
50 If you could have one super power what would it be?
the power to make everything perfect! hmm for example, i can make everybody got A1 on their olevel cert, i can make everybody happy, i can make the whole world a better place!
51 If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
definitely. i will wanna go back to.. the day which i took my higher chinese paper. i’ll make sure i do the whole paper1 and 2 very very carefully, and allow no rooms for errors at all!
52 If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
my family photo.
TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
53 Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
i’ve no ex okay! hmm but, i’ll need to consider if i still have any feelings for her? if yes, why not?
54 Would you ever kiss someone you love?
Of course? i think it’s a very common way to express one’s love.
ONE LAST QUESTION :
55 Are you happy with your life right now?
satisfied!
Alright, i think im off for some shows! Goodnight everybody! i’m hungry, ahh! shall i cook some noodles. but supper is fattening! ahh!
P/S: credits, the above survey is taken from http://flyawayfaith.onsugar.com/
The good old days..
Promised myself to blog some pictures, so here are some with i came across at CHSNCCLAND’s blog. the good old days, our trip to Mt. Ophir. thinking back, i had lots of fun. those mosquito bites and some scratches were definitely worthwhile! pictures for 视觉享受。Ahh, i really miss school and my cca and everything!
Had a hard time uploading these pictures. It’s because im using an external ‘uploader’, called picasa. it hosts my photos. things could be done so much easier if i upload my pictures to wordpress! ok im super tired today, didnt take afternoon nap at all. mainly because mediacorp’s channel8/channelU got nice shows to watch on sunday afternoon!
ok firstly, i watched the 公主小妹 on channelU from 1pm to around 2.30pm. its the final episode of it, love this taiwan drama a lot! 张韶涵 is super pretty okay! and then 2.30pm i switched to channel8 to watch this super old, yet classic and epic movie by Jackie Chan. Its the 2nd part of 警察故事. i watched the first part last week too! and omg, its so freaking awesome, that i gave my afternoon nap a miss! basically this movie is about Jackie chan jumping around, fighting, doing all the incredible stunts and catching baddies. super nice drama. im sure it wasnt my first time watching it, but still, nice! and 4.30pm, i continued with channel8 for 乒乓圆. err, i dont really like the show, its super unrealistic, with all the CG effects. oh, 乒乓圆 was at last episode too, so i sat through and watched the whole thing. ok lar, frankly speaking, its.. quite okay. hahaha. so there goes my sunday afternoon!
at night, when AMK hub with my family. bought lots of things from the NTUC extra. i love shopping at such big supermarkets! and i realised that NTUC extra at AMK hub got this ‘international’ section, where it has all the international products, like taiwanese, american, australian, korean and japanese! omg, the japanese section is lovely. and i saw this packet instant-fried-rice at the japanese section. really feel like buying, but didnt. i really wonder, how did they manage to produce instant-fried-rice? instant noodles is commonly known to us, but definitely not instant-fried-rice right! oh we bought this durian puff outside NTUC extra, although the queue was super long! bought 6, and there’s still one left in the fridge, fattening but who cares!
ok, cant think of anymore things to blog. haha, i guess my momentum is more-or-less back. be here regularly to see my updates! and also, at least i’ve more things to read after few months when i read my old posts?
anyway i think i’m really into blogging. it’s like, i will think of what to post during comercial breaks while watching tv. or while bathing, eating or even lying on the bed, waiting for some dream-god or wadever to pull me into slumber land. hahahaha. actually i think blogging is a very good way for me to.. keep my memories? and i really enjoy reading my older posts. so i think i will continue blogging, and i wont mind if nobody reads this blog, since afterall, i blog for future-chekwei to read!
lastly..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIXIN, 10 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP AND COUNTING! ! !
人因梦想而伟大。
I may sound very unrealistic, but this is my dream university!
So next 2 years, i really need to work hard. perhaps twice or thrice or ten times as hard! Well, at least now i’ve a goal to work towards!
P/S: According to wikipedia, University of Tokyo is ranked 3rd in the world in 2009! Omg! I dream big! Perhaps this post is just something for my eyes to see, haha!
Hmm..
this is what i call ‘momentum’. when u lose it, u will find it hard to start blogging again. i shall start off with something light, a quiz perhaps.
01. Who was your last text from?
mervyn.
02. Where was your default picture taken?
wallpaper u mean? its ai otsuka. hahaha.
03. Your relationship status?
single, and it will always be in the near future.
04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
sounds really terrible!
05. What is your current mood?
calm, relax plus abit excited for college.
06. How many siblings do you have?
One older brother.
07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
chekhow. i’m chekwei btw.
08. Where do you wish you were right now?
somewhere in the middle of the busy street of tokyo, enjoying the feeling of people brushing pass my shoulders during the rush hour.
09. Have a crazy side ?
nope, i dont joke. i’m hell serious.
10. Ever had a near death experience?
not me but some school girl. i nearly rode my bicycle and crushed her flat around yishun area. like wth, who will read while walking?
11. Something you do a lot.
watching dramas. no longer only japanese, i’ve moved on to korean, hongkong and soon taiwan. i wanna 称霸全亚洲. in english, i wanna dominate the whole of asia. =)
12.Angry at anyone now?
not really. just feel disappointed for the person’s actions.
13. What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?
haha i’m not good enough for her.
14. When was the last time you cried?
quite recent. not really recent, but quite.
15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yes, my parents. my life-long mission is to make them two happy.
16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
i sleep not because wheni’m tired, but its when i know it’s time to sleep.
i think sleeping is a waste of time. why not watch more dramas, surf more webs or disturb more people on facebook?
17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
mum. told her that the wire at the braces there, was loose. and hell, dental clinic didnt open during weekends.
18. What is your favorite song?
jpop is the loved xoxo <3!
19. What are you doing right now?
chatting with clarence, facebooking, and blogging.
20. Who do you trust right now?
some of my really closed friends whom i share my woes with (you know who u are!)
and my mother.
21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
chs bookshop. im wearing chs pe teeshirt now.
22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
nope.
23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
closest? i think is linkai. then zixin.
24. Describe your life in one word?
unpredictable.
25. Who are you thinking of right now?
im sms-ing mervyn now, so im thinking of him? sounds gross, but yes.
26. What should you be doing right now?
nothing much, i’m enjoying every bit of tonight because my bro’s in chalet and now, i’ve got the whole room to myself!
27. What are you listening to?
Utada Hikaru – Prisoner of Love.
28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
cant remember. guys dont hug guys.
29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
i think is.. my mother?
30. Do you act differently around the person you like ?
i think so? but i think i dont like anybody now.
31. What is your natural hair color?
abit brown, abit.
32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
cant remember please.
33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
im a cheerful person.
34. What do you hear?
now i changed to Jay Chou’s music.
35. Is your hair curly or straight?
straight.
36. Has anyone ever called you “scrumptious” before?
no, lame.
37. Do you have a best friend?
haha yes.
38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
nope.
39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
quite often. haha, and when i use it, i mean it.
40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
think so.
41. Are you happy with life right now?
知足常乐。
42. Are you currently jealous?
知足常乐 x2。
43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
nope, i’m a guy and i’m straight. i kicked off that habit already.
44. What were you doing on friday night?
friday night, usually staying at home. but saturday night will most likely go out for dinner with family. love it!
45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
ya i’m a human being. i laugh i smile i joke i tear, just like anyone. but its almost unlikely for me to show my sad/unhappy side to my friends. family, yes, but not friends. i’ll always portray a happy side of me, thats me. it’s like, i dont want anybody to know that i’m unhappy. thats me, really.
46. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
i’m really sorry if i did.
47. Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now?
yes, but its some not-so-closed-people in my life.
48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
touch wood. doctor, no. dentist, last week.
49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
2.45am, i made improvement. felt abit giddy, so i went to bed earlier.
50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
no no no, never.
50questions, not really little okay! i’m really sorry, but i forgot where i copy/paste this 50questions from! but still, thanks to whoever, who created this interesting quiz! spent like 30mins doing it, plus chatting with some people on msn. haha. alright really sorry to chekwei if he’s reading this post months later. i didnt have a chance to blog, actually i did. but i was really busy and vexed and simply no mood to blog. monday was the day, for all olevel people. i got my results, the moment i saw it, i was satisfied. rather happy. but when i came to know that there are so many people who did way better, when i reached home and saw the facebook or heard from friends, i was quite depressed.
phew, i was self-enlightened that very night. i thought of it, why bother to compare with others? and come to think of it, my results arent that bad. i still have so many 14 college to choose from! and i was really happy that my parents were satisfied with my results too. like i mention, my life long mission is to make them two happy. sounds noble, wadever.
speaking of comparisons, some people may think that comparing with others is a very good thing because it allows you to know ur standings, ur performances and it helps u to improve. but, if comparisons and competitions make one unhappy, stressful or even cause depression, will it still helps? in chinese we call it 恶性竞争. competition is a very sensible method to help people within the group to progress, thats why it’s used so commonly in our society. but this wont be sensible anymore, if it forges rivals and enemies.
pardon me for my poor poor poor English language ability thus i cant express clearly.
anyway, really sorry for not blogging. hmm yesterday i got a sudden urge to go TANGS at orchard. coz my idol was there doing some Road Show for some fashion brand. but you know, going alone is rather boring. so i gave it a miss, please i think i recently was super tired. like today, saturday afternoon, i took 2 afternoon naps. i woke up at 12noon, ate lunch, watched 宫心计, slept at 2pm plus. woke up at 4pm plus again, watched 宫心计, and slept at 6pm plus and woke up at 8pm plus for 宫心计 and dinner. so, i can easily summarise my saturday life as: eat, sleep, drama. 宫心计 is a hongkong drama, blockbuster in 2009.
anyway the above 50 questions quiz is just meant to lengthen this post. i dont feel comfortable just blogging this few paragraphs!
alright, i think i’m running out of brain juice to think of contents to blog. just make do with it okay!
P/S: blogsong changed. weekly message updated.
P/S: sorry for a wordy post, next post will try to find some pictures!
see you, have a nice weekend!
太美丽。
不是你太单纯，是别人太复杂。
P/s: a proper post will be made in the coming days! sorry to myself, i was really busy!
untitled.
不屑/ 黄鸿升 -爱 & 英雄-
FUN4
事情如果那么简单那就好了
想让自己不见
瞬间就统统消灭
人类如果没有心脏那就好了
受伤不会流血
悲伤也不会流泪
不需要有同类
传染颓废
不需要愚昧的尊严
不需要去偷窃你的思念
自我安慰
就让我伪装
我嘴角不屑
让孤独乘以更孤独的两倍
允许我保留我最后一点点特权
赦免我想念你的心碎
如果我眼神里闪烁不屑
可能我心里一半已经残废
那一半跟著你走远了的那一天
这一半渐渐一一瓦解
如果我还有一点点不屑
别想要说服我纯洁的绝对
我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年
如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许有一天我们会重叠
我可以再爱你第二遍
这首歌，写得真好..
short one, i swear
point form post. not really in the mood, a bad way to start the first week of 2010 seriously. suck big time. but still im gonna blog, before i lose my momentum and this blog will be stagnant.
- 7th jan went THE CAGE. soccer, tiring. stamina obviously not up to mark. specs kept falling. played, scored, laughed. rongxuan is actually a nice guy, he treated me pasta mania. i needa hold my tongue more often now, i think. At night, told mum and dad about contact lens. they werent supportive. i was very pissed off and my emotions surfaced. how childish i was. thinking back, i felt so so so guilty.
- 8th jan went back to CHS. Uniform Group Talk. nah, i went back to watch it. Land’s speech was good of course. hope the sec1s will make the right choice? they were so noisy. At night, mum told me to take a look at my wallet. i thought she wanna tell me that my wallet was so old and ragged. I walked off and said ‘Ya i know my wallet is very old’ in chinese. She told me to look closer inside. I saw a piece of $50 note inside. She continued ‘Dad saw that ur wallet was empty, so he put it in’. I tried very very hard and i hold back my tears. I felt more guilty for fuming at them the previous night, just over a pair of contact lens.. this feeling sucks.
I know my parents love me very much. but i’m so worried that i can’t do them proud next monday. and the thought of disappointing them is really painful for me. I don’t mind going to some other college, because my grades deserve it. but i feel that my parents would want their son to get into top JCs, though they didnt put in to words. they’ve done so much for me, yet i may not reciprocate. I dare not imagine what’s gonna on monday.
Shocking to see such post in my blog? I’m still a human afterall. I smile, i joke, i tear just like anyone.
してください私と一緒に失望してはいけない please don’t be disappointed with me..
Judgement day.
11th Jan 2010.
2pm.
CHS secondary school hall.
class 4-7 lane.
4th person in the class.
to get the Olevels results.
if anybody says that they arent worry at all, i bet with my dick that they are lying.
in life, we need this special, mysterious, supernatural force called: Luck.
Good luck everybody!
Enjoy the last 4 days?
See you.
