♥ When darkness turns to light it ends tonight.

Very fast right? i feel that this year is like really a blink of an eye. 2009 i think its kinda normal but abit significant year for me. because i know myself more, like i know what things i love, what songs i like that kind of thing? yes that kind of thing.

and i think 2009 is the year which i spent the most amount of money in my entire life. including my ipod, my Japanese-pop products and merchandises and other misc like clothes, bags wadever. i think it sums up to at least 1500? omfg. really man. i dunno, because i dun check my bank book. what an expensive year.

2009 is also a year which i met incredible people, some changed my life, some influenced my life, some fucked my life upside down and some make my life happy and exciting.

Like i came to know more people existing in the world, which are so remarkable (in my opinion), like Ai Otsuka my all-time fav idol, By2, Mrs Lim, Joe Tan, Julie Tan and more. im sure there are more, just that i cant think of them now. mild mental block!

and 2009, i may appear to be facing some kind of identity crisis shit, but its all meant for fun. i’m straight like ur 30-cm ruler used in science SPA (and many of u will forgot to bring weekly, and forced to buy it every week). but still, one thing is certain is that, i really like the color pink. it’s so pleasant to my eyes.

and i like Japanese culture a lot too. i just think that Japanese characters are very interesting and japanese girls are so prettaye as most of them have straight-cut bangs. xoxo<3. but i’m really trying to like K-pop more, im still trying and this will be one of my 2010 resolution. (next blogpost, tmr maybe!)

i’ll carry on when i’m back okay! am going to marina area now, hope its not crowded though its impossible, HAHA.

See you, xoxo<3

Julie Tan, from The Promise 向日葵的约定.

I CAN’T STAND GIRLS WITH STRAIGHT-CUT BANGS.

THEY ARE SO MUCH PRETTIER X999!

This picture is melting me. She’s just beautiful.

It’s 4.30am now. Goodnight, See you!

its 2.45am now. i didnt sleep last night at all, but i’m seriously not tired. i’m feeling very fucked up. i just ended my chat with 2 of my very good friends E and C. we talk about anything under the sun, but we focus more on love relationships. love, as in boy-girl. they taught me a lot, we shared a lot these few days too. how i wish, i can be as brave as them, to face my most inner feelings truthfully, and stop all those unnecessary worries.

对于感情，我应该选择逃避还是坚持?

anyway i went to Malaysia for grave sweeping today. before i left home, i tweet and hoped that i can be home by 9.30pm because im desperately dying to watch this movie on channel U. bingo, i managed to reach home exactly by 9.30pm. i didnt regret opening the car’s door and rush to the lift, even before my dad parked the car properly. this movie is really one good movie.

This movie titled ‘The Promise 向日葵的约定’. it’s a simple love story between 2 teenagers. thumbs up for the director and producers. and of course, Julie and Lawrence acted so well. they look so compatible. no doubt people, i think Julie aka Princess ShanShan (her character in this movie), is so prettaye and cute, especially when she had the sunflower on her head. wah, i nearly melted. and Lawrence is very handsome too, thats why they look so compatible! FYI, the guy is 10years older than the girl (Lawrence is 27 and Julie is borned in 1992), in actual life. I wonder whether it is the guy who looks young and boyish, or the girl looks mature. anyway, i love this movie like anything.

it is really one of the my favourite movies. i admire the love of WY for Princess ShanShan, which is to give up initially, since WY thinks that he is not yet ready/suitable to take good care of Princess ShanShan. i think this is indeed a classic example of..

有一种爱叫做放弃。

basically this movie is about a guy falling in love with a girl with MID mild intellectual disability, and the girl also loves the guy too. however the girl’s mother is being abit overprotective of her daughter, so she kind of disallowed her daughter to be with this guy. the guy’s parents don’t like the girl too, since she is considered as special in their eyes. but these two really love each other so much. so in the end, the girl’s mother asked the guy if he is able to provide happiness and be sure to take equally good care of the girl, just like she does for past 17 years. the guy knew he isnt fully capable nor ready, so he chose to give up..

well i think if, i say if, this really happens to me; i will do the same like the guy too. Loving someone, not only wanting her to be with you, but also wanting her to always happy. isnt it? If a guy is more capable than me, of bringing happiness to the girl i love dearest, i will give them my blessings. this may sound super epic and noble and fake and very fake, but it’s really from me. afterall, loving someone simply means hoping her to be happy always, isnt it?

And i really hope Singapore can produce more of this kind of movie, simple yet to-the-point. all these movies are so much better than our BGR talks in school, please hello?! anyway i really feel like watching this entire movie again, with my eyes glued to the screen and understand the feelings of the characters totally. it is so touching and lovely.

太阳神 & 向日葵。

ahh, i just yawned. but i’m still bright awake. i’m still abit emo-ish. wadever, its really rare for me to be emotional, especially for this kind of thing. perhaps i’m thinking too much, wadever! anyway i love this picture very much! its so sweet, omg. and i love the.. sunflower bed. i thought they computer generated the background, but after i watched this movie, the fact is that the movie team went to thailand to film this part! its really awesome. i really wish to go there one day, to see the sunflowers.

ok thats all for this post. i’m really glad that i managed to watch this movie.

Princess ShanShan says: 不可以说ByeBye，要说再见，因为我们一定会再见。

so.. SEE YOU!

pictures from Julie Tan: http://www.wretch.cc/blog/shaoyin/

ahh, 2nd time i ate in Swensens (is that correct spelled? wdv) my entire life. Class 4-7′s dinner. because i just got my metal bands at the molars, and the cement which caused the metals to be intact had yet to dry, i was advised to carry on eating soft food. so i couldnt eat any fish n chips, neither could i eat pasta. so i ate this Regular Earthquake. its worthwhile, coz its never ending. i mean, i couldnt really finish it. its the serving for at least 2. but in the end i finished it, haha. quite a lot of us turned up. we chatted a lot. i could have chatted more, but i reserved abit, coz i just find that my mouth is weird. haha, but its not obvious at all. thian changed her hairstyle, she straightened it and its now purple.

some of us went Orchard after that. i bought a shirt from topman, together with kl. i need financial planning. seriously. i left only 30 odds after i went out today.

right today i went out with Ed at amk hub, coz he wanna buy presents for his friends. i didnt bring a lot of cash, coz im sure i wont be spending. but hell, i bought something for my zibi friend. im sure she will love it. it is seriously not cheap in my (a bankrupt man) opinion. i bought this keychain thingy, its so cool. i actually wanna buy one for myself, but i didnt carry enough cash. so i bought one as a present. it’s DIY, spent abit of effort choosing. Ed also. i will definitely go back to this shop and buy one for myself!

(shucks, im trying to kope photos and paste it on my blog, but fb is lagging like usual)

anyway im quite happy today. not only because it is the Eve of Xmas (like i care, i dun celebrate xmas honestly), because i ran today and i think my stamina is somewhere reaching my peak. i love this feeling. i love running, xoxo. and because my Ayumi Hamasaki’s album is being delivered. (it’s called Ayumi Hamasaki – A COMPLETE, for those who are wondering). and im also happy with i chatted with my zibi friend for quite long last night, or rather this morning. zibi friend, i calculated. we started sms at 11.30pm and we ended at 4.30am. so its 5-hours of chat.  ‘Wow’ right? *nod head*

X-mas eve, and im here blogging. best blogger ever, i dedicate my time for blogging.

Anyway i came across this kinda nice blog.
http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com/ there got loads of hmm funny quotes and sentences.  and i saw these 2 which i love.

“ if a boy really likes you, he doesn’t care how tired he is, how much homework he has or how late it is. he’ll talk to you.”

“ I’ve learned not to dwell on bad moments, because every sixty-seconds you spend upset is minute of happiness you’ll never get back. ”

i will visit that blog regularly, its so good okay.

and also i saw this facebook group. it says..

When I Was Younger, I Put My Face Close to the Fan to Hear My Robot Voice.

ROFL. i did that. im sure all human beings with a fan at home, tried that. hahahaha, i LOL immediately when i saw this group. i joined. its so funny.

right. thats all for this post.

www.keirea.com wishes everybody Merry X’mas!

A quick and short one, i promise.

I came across C’s blog just now and i saw these few lines.

“But when I listen to korean songs e.g. Clazziquai Project, I will check out their lyrics.”

this is what i do also, for japanese music. or rather, i think i managed to memorise like nearing 60% of Ai’s lyrics in English, thanks to iTunes and iTouch. it allows me to see the lyrics, in japanese and english translated. of course, i inserted the lyrics into the MP3 itself. i even added album art, loves Ai’s album art uknow.

“I like artists who write their own songs. I think they can sing it even better, with more feeling and emotions; instead of singing songs which are penned by others.”

this is one of the main reasons why imma sucha HUGE fan of Ai. If my intelligence gathered all these months are correct, Ai composed every single song herself; be it the music and the lyrics. If not, 90% of her songs. And she is involved in the productions of her own merchandise, some of her album arts and of course her concert.

anyway recently im opening myself more to other genre of music. seriously, can u guys believe that i’ve been listening to SUPER GIRL by SUJU-M for like 5days? and i think LADY GAGA’s TELEPHONE ft. Beyonce is catchy. i was super anti-GAGA last time, i think i still am. but i told myself that i needa open up more. haha. and i listen to Happier by A Fine Frenzy, as recommended on C’s blog.

i do make an effort to listen to songs recommended by friends in their blog, coz i believe that those music are recommended for a reason, right? and also I WOULD NEVER OFF PEOPLE’S AUTO-PLAY BLOGSONS. i always listen to them, seriously. i think it’s just being respectful to the blogowner. (so i hope people out there will also enjoy my blogsong!) THIS WEEK’S BLOGSONG FEATURING MR. CHILDREN – SHIRUSHI. FYI, Mr. Children is one of the most significant band in Japan, i don’t really listen a lot of their songs. but i love Shirushi. the piano is good.

PS: AYUMI HAMASAKI’S LATEST SINGLE [YOU WERE..] DEBUTS 29/12.

Anyway i’ve done watching another Jdrama serial, SHOKOJO SEIRA. like omfg, Shida Mirai‘s acting is so so so good. FYI she’s only 16. And she’s pretty. But the last episode i just watched, she had a kiss scene with the lead actor. i shouted when i saw it. haha, i was alone at home. Anyway she’s still one of my favourite Japanese artiste.Really hopes to see her next productions in the near future.

I’m still watching NEW HEART. it’s just damn nice, i will definitely complete it.

Okay okay, i’m off for dinner. tonight i can something else other than porridge. 老鼠粉。

first and foremost, both sides of the molar area of my mouth hurt like crazy when i accidentally or try to bite together. so it’s been consecutive 3 days for my upper teeth floating right above my lower teeth. i simply cant let my upper teeth rest, coz the upper and lower molar will touch and it hurts like crazy. seriously, damn irritating. but thank goodness, i wont feel any pain when the molars arent in contact with anything.

since my molars cant touch anything, i cant chew, i cant bite, i can only swallow. porridge for 3 full days and im craving for just a plate of chicken rice. like seriously, damn it. so painful even when my spoon slightly hit my teeth. ok currently, i’ve got 6 stupid small rubbers being inserted in between my molar teeth, 4 above 2 below. so these 6 pieces of shit is causing my teeth and gum to be sore. really sore. when can i remove these 6 pieces of killers? wednesday 2pm. so painful..

anyway last night, or rather this morning around 1am i started on a korean drama which i always wanted to watch. i watched like first few episodes on chU last time, but i couldnt catch up coz channel U aired it on saturday night and i always missed it. so now, im starting all over again and it’s still so nice.

NEW HEART. Ji sung is so fking handsome, really. i love his everything inside this show. from his hair to his personality. i love his white rode too, it’s so cool okay. okay basically his show is about doctors and medicals and hospitals. its so fking nice, really. and realistic, losta blood. i watched 3 episodes and i took some breaks in between. i slept at 6am, cant believe it. and i find that the.. lead actress is so charismatic.

i cant really find any decent pictures, just one which i screen shot.

i’m abit inspired to become a doctor. abit, haha. whatever, haha.

byebye!

alright, today i didnt go anywhere. kinnda lazy, supposed to watch movies with guochuan but seems like a lot of people not going. and i was so lazy to leave house, coz the weather today was kinnda cold cooling. so yes! also a great chance for me to watch my DVD, which i bought like 2 weeks ago.

the full name for this Ai Otsuka‘s DVD concert is called 大塚 愛 LOVE LETTER Tour 2009 ～ライト照らして、愛と夢と感動と・・・笑いと！～ at Yokohama Arena on 17th of May 2009. The words in Japanese characters simply means, With light shining and love and dreams and excitement and laughter! Nope, im still clueless about Japanese words just that these Jap characters were translated into Chinese characters at the back of the dvd cover.

Before watching this DVD, i used to think that Ai‘s 爱 AM BEST Tour 2007 was her best concert ever. But after watching THIS, i feel that THIS is the best, best of the best. Ai changed like more than 5 outfits in this concert, and she looked really pretty in all of them. especially for the winter costume she wore, when she sang POCKET and Ai. overall everything was really good in this concert. and one more thing, which is so amazing. YOKOHAMA ARENA is really one super big concert hall. according to wiki, it can hold 17,000 people! sugoi! And and and, i must say that THIS concert’s version of CHU-LIP, is super duper awesome, i love it like anything. really. im sure the dancers on stage with Ai are more than 50 of them. its simply majestic.. haha. CHU-LIP is a very nice song by Ai, one of my favourite songs from her. one more highlight, i must say that THIS concert’s version of Kurage Nageraboshi almost make my teared. its so touching. i dunno why, it was the first time i heard this song. in fact, this song is like one of the top play-rate in my ipod. but, i got a feeling while listening to this song. its so good. and i love my living room’s sound system and tv screen. the former is loud enough and the latter is big enough. hahaha, perfect.

anyway this concert tour was really awesome. i know im making a damn bias remark, coz im a super big fan of Ai. i love her even more, after this concert tour. i really wish that one day i can watch her concert, Live. be it in Singapore or Japan or Mars. she’s my biggest idol ever, by2 and ayumi next next next.pictures below. i screen-shot them using comp. Yokohama Arena is just.. big.

*don’t ask me why im watching in chinese subtitled, its embeded in the video, i cant do anything to change.

right. i think a blog post is so empty and plain without pictures. haha, i promise now that my all my future posts will have photos, pictures, videos wadever. wall-of-text is so boring, maybe in my opinion. haha okay.

and Ai has my blessing. she will be happy! and i am happy too!

Sidetrack.

i went jogging today. and i think im so freaking stupid. i didnt have a proper lunch and i went to run. like omfg right. i drank a cup of.. the soya milk and ate the marigold yogurt thats all. thats why, i literally saw stars. the feeling was so so so bad. felt like fainting during the way back, so i strolled most of the distance. i think its 99% impossible for me to regain my stamina, its so difficult, given my current body condition. and i really need a pair of trainers. the badminton shoes are really hurting my ankle. its so small. bought it like 3 years ago, omg. haha.

i miss mrs lim. i miss school-life. i wanna watch some movies. tmr’s my 2nd dental appointment, removing 2 more teeth at the left side of my mouth plus putting some rubber thing between my molar teeth there, to make a small gap for metal to insert wadever. tmr will hurt more, damn.

oh one more thing before i go. 王心凌’s new album released this week. and her 1st hit is 心电心. im not really a fan of her, but i find that she’s abit pretty. i dont really care about her music either. why do i notice her this time? because her song 心电心 is a direct version of ORANGE RANGE‘s Ishin Denshin. its totally the same, just that 王心凌 sings in chinese and ORANGE RANGE is in japanese. i love the japanese version, and this particular song (together with ikenai taiyou which was the opening song for Hana Kimi Jap vr), make me like ORANGE RANGE. okay my point is, i prefer the original Japanese version. but i think 王心凌 did quite an okay job for this song.

FYI: 王心凌 sang AI OTSUKA’s song before too! i forgot which album of 王心凌, but the song is called 愛的滑翔翼. Ai’s version is called Momo no Hanabira. i think 王心凌 still got a long way to go, coz i really don’t like 王心凌’s version of Momo no Hanabira. maybe because im so hardcore Ai fan.

Lol, this post is super long. and im gonna complete BLOODY MONDAY tmr. left like 2episodes. maybe i chiong tonight. coz tmr morning 11am im going for dental. man, i can imagine the agony already.

ByeBye!

testing! hahahahaha.

*this post was previously password protected. just trying out for fun, really i swear.

Notice: blogsong changed to youtube auto play video. the previous medium i used was so sucky! so now, youtube! and weekly msg uploaded.

ok, im back yesterday morning from Kampar, Malaysia. the coach ride back was super sucky. the seat was super.. 窄. i dunno how u call it, narrow? squeezy? wadever, i tried like 99 positions to sit and i couldnt find any comfortable position. if the stupid ride was 1 or 2 hours, i wouldnt grumble. but its damn 7hours okay. gosh, i was bright awake throughout the whole journey back to woodlands custom. anyway, home sweet home safe and sound. happy.

went back to grandma’s house in kampar, didnt do anything constructive. eat, sleep, lepak, watch Hongkong drama. thats all. i brought 1 novel and 2 comics back, and i didnt touch them. hahaha. the food was fine, loves Aunt’s dumpling or wadever u call it. super nice, really. i slept a lot, like at least 10 hours a day, haha. and i find that sleeping is the best remedy for long hair. i think my hair grow faster than usual during these 4 days. Hongkong drama was Rosy Business 巾帼枭雄. its super nice show. it pwns all other hongkong drama that i watched. 宮心計,富貴門,溏心风暴 are nothing. and i feel that cantonese is super cool language! im proud that i know cantonese, yesyes!

and i finally realise the dominance facebook has in this whole world. its like, almost all of my cousins in malaysia have facebook. gosh, and they arent teenagers like me. some are even married adults. like omfg. facebook really that popular? yes it is. damn thing. hahaha. not too bad for me, since i’ve started using facebook for like a month and i sorta love it. just that my facebook laggs at night.

and its like all my maternal side’s cousins are married. haha, not all lar, but most i think. this is crazy, and most of them are so young in my opinion! they are like not even 30 okay! perhaps thats the trend in malaysia. haha, hmm i think, as long as u found the right destined person, the age to marry isnt important. yes.

currenly watching bloody monday ep5. kinnda nice show, Miura Haruma is super handsome and hot. still waiting for tokyo dogs and shokojo seira. i watch jdrama for the hot actors and pretty actress. i watch hongkong dramas for the plot. haha, yes.
BLOODY MONDAY

oh did i bloody hell mention about my dental appointment yesterday? its really.. worth mentioning. ok, here i go. so yesterday i had my teeth extraction, 2 teeth. the doctor did the usual procedure, gave me some injections of anaesthetic. and to hell with him, he didnt give me enough of it and he went on with the.. extraction. so he said sth like, when you feel pain, raise your hand okay. so he attempted my to pluck the lower segment of the tooth first. i felt the pain like obviously. so i signalled him to stop. the experience wasnt pleasant at all. then he gave me more injections. so he proceed to the upper jaw tooth. okay, to keep things short, let me summarise the second part. dentist got no strength, he couldnt remove my tooth. he kept changing his damn instrument, he complained that my tooth was too strong. he took a break. he continued, and he still keep changing his instrument. he wasnt focusing with the extraction, coz he was like instructing his assistants to stock pile his medicine. like wtf was wrong with him. finally he removed the tooth, after 30mins at least. i think he need some gym.

this friday i needa remove 2 more teeth. for those who wonder, why i needa pluck so many teeth. oh, its to make space for my teeth to move after the braces are up. speaking of that, 5th January i will get my braces up. before that, 23 december he will fix some metal shit in my mouth first. thats the schedule. im kinnda worried. but, for the sake of a prettier face, i think i should bear with it.

thats all for this post.

PS: lepak means slack, relax in malay.
PSS: i haven watch NEW MOON yet, i dunno if i should spend 6bucks on it. or i just search online. haha

Bye Bye! im off to Malaysia in like a few hours. sounds abit pathetic, as most of u guys would say: Bye im off to blah blah blah country. but anyway im sorta immune to jealousy, right.

oh on a lighter note, my Ai Otsuka’s 2010 Calendar is delivered. IT IS SUPER DUPER SUPER BIG. 72.8 x 51.5 cm. there are total.. 8 pages. Super HAPPY now! i try to take a few shots when im back on monday morning. its really. big.

alright, bye people.